A "cry for help"..

Dakiras: Off-Topic: Yes, suggesting the use of drugs is forbidden as it's illegal across most of Europe. I ask that you please remove the references of it and take this as a learning lesson. Thanks :)   On-topic: Reverse your movement controls, and turn your mouse sensitivity way down so that you have to traverse the mouse mat/desk multiple times to make a 45 degree turn. Might make for a challenge.   As for a serious answer, it sounds like you're lacking drive to do anything. It's a form of depression, but I think assuming that depression is something that instantly needs a medical professional's attention is jumping the gun just a little bit. Everyone goes through periods of low productivity and enthusiasm, but doesn't mean they're suffering from any mental disorders as a result. I think you just need to try a few new things, maybe venture into a new hobby or project. Perhaps collecting small models of whatever it is you're interested in and putting some time into it. For instance, Warhammer 40,000 models or something similar.   Alternatively, just take some time to write a few start-up guides for newcomers to help them learn, as that could really get you interested in the game again.   You could just wait a bit longer and see if anything changes. Phases of interests and hobbies are common enough and easy to understand. Find something you find fun and do a bit of that.